TROPAX swimming...!asaran 2da max....!hehehe...^^

...swimming ur face! wala akong pkialam sa nararamdaman mo! wag mo 'kong gawing tanga ka!

..hala!kamusta nmn ung swimming ng "batch" nmin!naging swimming ng batch ng tropax at d'anoders (mark and yzon!) hala! tsk3! d kc sumama ung d'arkers and tupsh! ampfness! at e2 pang nkakainiz jan...c pangke! tablado! ala nmn kc dapat swimming ih! xia 2ng ngsv ng date tpos d xia sasama! amvvah nmn! buti nlng at n2loi kmI! woootzz!
..amvah! bgo pa kmi makaaliz...puro laitan pa ang inabot ng isa't-isa..specially jp??!!haha! at jatper??at ivan??hahah!...ayun! nabadtrip 2loi si porky..katacute!hala!..akalain mong naasar un! cla allain kc...cnabhan pa xiang coz of delay daw!haha!...tsk3! sasabayan pa nitong si carlo at bayo! ayun! nabatukan nmin! hihi...kmi tlga'y di na nagkasundo-sundo! ah ang yan! edi ayan...nkaalis na...ang problema nmn..san kmi pu2ntang resort??!!hahaha!khuleetzz tlg nmin....tsk3! kmi'y di magkanda-ugaga...eh kulang budget ih! 2500 lang! hala! demanding pa kmi...gs2 nmin priv8! eh la nga nmng tatanggap ng prv8 na 2500 lang! haha!..edi kmi'y ngiingay na laang sa jeep...parang mga tanga! pno'y gabi na...tpos gutom pa...ang tagal bgo makahanap ng pool!..at e2 pang sk chairman at erick eh mapagpanggap pa! ampfness tlg yang sk na iyan ih! 100 lang bnigay?!!tsss!duh?!
..at sa hinaba-haba ng tawanan..sa public din ang 2loi..at ayun! naasar agad aq pagdating dun...malay ko bang nakaharang pala aq sa may lamesa?!eh di nmn xia ngeexcuse!ampfness...!hekhek...un tlgng sk na iyun! nakakhiya tlg dun sa dalawa nming visitors ih..si mitchy at pipoy...aba! kmi'y walang plate,fork and spoon...kya yun! nagkamay...kanya2! hekhek! at khit nmn tlg nakain eh asaran pa rin! tsk3! walang pagbabago! mas lumala pa! hahahah!.. at ung kinakain nmin eh bigas pa tlg! hirap lunukin ih! haha..! buti at pagkatpos kumain kmi ni ivan eh nag-inum sa labas...libre nia nmn eh!hehe...!
..hayyzz...sawap sa sinrinea...hekhek!...kmi ang mga sirena at sila nag mga hampas dagat...amvah! e2ng si poypi...super shyness! di nmn kakagatin...nilalayuan pa kmi! leave me alone ang drama??haha! kya ayun! niloko2 nmin xia...hekhek!lalo na q...di q pala2gpasin ang pagkakataon na hnd q xia mapa2tawa...hakhak! kaya ayun...pati mga boys tawa na rin ng tawa...aq lang ngpakilala sa kanya ih! hahahhahah!!...makuleet lang cguro tlg q!hihi...
..eewwness ung boys ih!...naghubuan ng short! ayun...mga nakabrief sa pooL! haha! xi lesfrey nadamay..di 2loi makaalis sa pool! haha...kasama ba namn kc sila sk at erick!hihi....e2 nmng xi billy di man lang nag-swim khit tampisaw man lang! wala ng ginawa kundi m2log ng m2log! ay tlg nmn! khit kmi't pauwi na,,,2log pa din! un lang ginawa nia magdamag ah?! puyaaatt pa xia nun! hala!...xi sk at erick nmn ih umuwi na agad...tsk3! peo aus lang...at least they spend time khit pno...
...hayyzz,..saya kc nakasundo na nmin c exong...sana 2loi-2loi na 2..sv nag nia "aus lang un!magkakasama nmn tau!" un un whe! men masawap??!!hahahhaha!..khuleettzz tlg!...e2 nmng mezz at ivan nia..eh tlg nga nmng solo eh! di man lang nkipagtsurva 2ng c ivan sa tropax boysz...buti pa c ace...palakpakan!hahah!...^^
..saya nmng maligo sa pool na lumagpas lang sa paa ang tubig..hihi!..kming dalwa ni lhen nauna dun eh...aguy! at sumunod si matt at bayo at lesfrey...tpos ung ibang hampas dagat!hahahahha! parang tanga lang!
..kow! sayang ala man lang nkilalang gwapo! haha!
..buti na nga lang pala di kami nagkagutuman...kung nagkataon...gudluck tlg!hehe
..at dhil we need tlgng mag-relax...dun kmi sa hot pool...ohhh! men masawap! at dun pa humiga at umidlip...sawap nmn ih! hehe...^^in the end....gumamit kmi ng ibang cottage para my ma2lugan ng aus...haha! ang dumi kea ng cottage nmin! haha!..paggising..ang walang kamatyang asaran at magic sa baraha...!hekhek...

...but xempwe...di pepedeng la kming captured moments...hihi!..khit onti lang..atleast meon...yeeepppeeeee!!!!^^api2 tlg!...nxtym..dapat soxal na kmi...ok?!soxal na! harhar!..
..grabeh nga pla ung natuklasan q kay jp...22ong bading tlg xia! at cla pa ni james!!...awts! grabeeehh! silahis xia...huhuhu!...ang problema q...pno q sasavhn sknya..pnong approach...ampf! kadiri pa ung pinaguusapan nila! den he lied 2me pa...sv nia marissa daw neym! at nkilala daw nia nung camp! peo xi james nmn! arghhh! we need to talk tlg.....he needs me...im his friend...and as long as i can help...i will..i won't let that happen..jp know's it coz he's a son of GOD...hayyzz...
GOD is in control...kaya q yan!!!^^aja!

hala!...TH lang kya q or my sumthin' tlg?!hmmm...

hayyzz....nu ba 'tong ngyayari???...hala! hello peng?! wag kang TH! mmya...lost na nmn yan! hala! saka mgkadance troup pa ung dalawang un!..tatlo rather....! but atleast,, wula na ung isa! ainako!...kc nmn ung isa...masyadong umaasa skin! hala! e yung isa nmn...parang nagpaparamdam lang!..oh ayan! TH na nmn aq...pero di nmn aq ngkakamali pagdating sa ganyan...xempwe nafyfeel q noh?!hayyzz...

what do you think???...for me nmn..ala pa nmn aq nafyfeel...parang ordinary lang!^^ hala! nu ba 2ng ngyayari skin...my bgo na nmn atang manggugulo ah?!...ampf!

teka...teka...teka...bat ba q excited??? basta kontrolado lang!...ala nmng cgurong mngyayari...!sana...bka kc magkaconflict!..deadz aq ni2!...amfness!

"i saw HIM staring at me!!!"

oh my gosh!....imgonnadie!!!...hahaha!...i saw him looking at me....hehehe!...la lang!di lang ako maka move-on kagabi kc nakatingin xia skin!...^^
(sigh) kc nmn...di na kmi ngpapansinan...eh pno?!nagkailangan na!...ampfness!...hayyzz...
di pa ata ako maka move-on dun!...hayyzzz...bahala na si Lord...
sana my 2ndchance pa sming dalawa......(sigh)
sayang,....
sayang.....
sayang.....
close pa nmn kmi b4...hayyzz...^^namiss ko 2loi ung asaran nmin...(sigh)
my gf xia naun whe!...hayyzz...pero ok lang!...feel q nmn na nafefeel nia rin ung nafefeel qoh whe...^^
hehehe...^^
(sigh)

swimming...ming...ing...!chillax!..^^

Last April 30,2008,vwhile I was taking my dinner, Matt and Pao came into our house unexpectedly. Teka, ba’t ba ko nage-english??? Hehehe! Tagalog na lang! Hahaha! Ayun nga, tpos sbi nila sama daw ako sa swimming! As in now na! Syempre,panic nmn aq…hekhek!..Tpos sv nila ngagandahan daw skin c joel!!! OMG! IMGONNADIE! Hahah!...Edi pang-empake nmn aq. Tpos ayun! Pagdating nmin kila matt..tgal nming nakatambay. Di malaman kung 22loy ba o hnd! In the end…hnd natuloy…2m na lang daw! Edi ayun,super cheeseburjer kmi tpos wentuhan hanggang umaga! At kaya pala di kami natuloy kac my manganganak! Exactly, 4:05 of May 1, 2008 lumabas ang baby girl. Firstime kong makakita ng baby na bagong labas talaga. As in ung color gray pa siya. Tpos ayun! Ang cute2! Then asked nmin kung what name nung baby…sv nung tatay nia SHANE daw. So, ako…sv q FERLYN SHANE! Mas maganda nmn tlg! Hehe..Kesa nmn shane lang!..tpos taw ang tawa cla mamy! Wag daw yun kc baka daw matulad skin ung bata! Ahhaha! Basta ako pinaparinig ko talaga na Ferlyn Shane na lang name nia! Ako pa first kiss nia! Sayang ala kming picture. Hehehe!
Edi ayun! Swimming na. Ala kming 2log. Ang masama nun,kala nmin beach un pala hnd! Super duper mega lawa pala! Harhar! Pero ok lang kasi masaya nmn. Kahit na kadiri ung tubig! Ampf! Hehehe! Nung naliligo na kmi,super duper mega sigaw aq…e,kasi nmn dinadala nila ko sa malayo! Hala! Tpos cla dadi tawa ng tawa smin! Tpos ayun,kain lang kmi inom. Then nung bumalik na uli kmi sa water. Aba! Kamusta nmn si manong at feeling close smin?! Sabi kasi nila wag daw lumayo kc meron daw nawawala dun kada taon. Tapos bigla ba nmn kmi binabasa ng tubig! Na star struck tlg kmi kay manong! Natawa na lang kmi! Feeling close kasi! At inulit pa nia! Kala nga nmin my pangatlo pa e! Papatulan na sana nmin! Harhar!
Tpos my guy dun na ngswimming. Singkit siya. Tpos lagi siyang nakatingin skin. Well, uh nakatingin din nmn aq sakanya! Hehehe! He’s cute, no doubt. But, halata namang bata pa siya. Haayyzz..lagi na lang akong naiinvolve sa mas bata skin. But atleast,isang taon lang nmn tanda ko! Hehehe! Ayun! Sayang, di ko man lang nalaman name nia, at di nia nalaman name ko! Hehehe! Nagkakilala sana kmi. Taga-tanauan lang nmn xia ih! Ahahhhahha! Talande tlg!
And then,after mgswimming super picturan na kmi with the sunset. Hmmm..saya! Hehehe! And then, uwi ako d2 sa bahay, CHILLAX!
I’m happy coz dahil sa outing na 2, I’ve come to realized na pangeet tlg xia and I don’t really like him! Wahahaha! Bitter??? Hihi! Di nmn! It’s just that…wala lang! heheh! Basta ok na ko. And I don’t care at all. Hehehe!

I've had enough...The pain is gone...

the pain is gone...and i've finally let go...

im happy now and there's no reason for me to be sad...

i've told him already...un nga lang..di q sinabing siya un...hehe!

i've felt alive again...^^

im not jealous anymore...

im happy for myself...

and so for him...

pro asaarr prin aq sa gf nia...

hehehe!!!

but if the tym cums that he'll fall for me...

tsk3...

sorry to him...

but i've had enough....

hahaha!

I've come to realized "pangeet ka pala!"

hahaha!...

I'll never waste my time loving you...

Sabagay...di mo nmn alam...I'm not afraid to tell you..It's just that I can't coz,I'm a gurl...and yoqng magmukhang desperada k2lad ng gf mo!ampf!...I don't want you to have pitty in me...coz I'm not pathetic...D ko din nmn gs2ng mgkags2 sau...And I'm not blaming you...I actually blame myself for loving you and the fact that I thought you love me too...Your so sweet to me...and you really make me feel that you love me...Naiiniz aq!hayyzz...I tried to control it,but its just happened...and poof!..I'm hurting now...

...I even planned to stop having any communications to you...But I think It's unfair to you na mawala na lang aq bgla...I know that I'm special to you...And I don't wanna loose a friend again just because I'm jealous and bitter to ur gf!...I'm just a friend you really need,specially when you have problems...skin mo tlg un sinasabi lahat...And I really thank you for trusting me...^^

...Bumalik ung insomnia q dahil sa kakaisip q sau...Khit yaw na kitang isipin..Gnun pa rin...Maybe I just need someone to forget about you...I need to be busy and just be happy for you...And also to myself...

And now...I've come to realized "PANGEET KA PALA!"

kya ayoq na sau....!

tHe gIrL tHaT hUrTs hIm...aNd hIm tHaT hUrTs mE...

..It hurts a lot knowing that the man i love,got hurt by the one he loves..:( I don't know when did I start loving him...its just happened!..and loving him causes so much pain...And the fact that I'm the one that he needs when they have "love quarrel" of that stupid girl..(haha!juk!)...It's ridiculous,but I have to advise him for their relationship...I have to put aside my emotions just to help him...awts right???arghhh!
..Haayzz...well,I've come to realize that I have to move on..let go..and let GOD take over...I don't need to do things to make him love me...Coz' if he wanted too..he would...
..Masyado ata akong seryoso...shit! ewan q bah...dmi nmn ngmamahal sking boys outder...pero dun aq npupunta sa mga nakakasakit lang skin...awts!:(
..Everytime,I prayed to God that I'm very thankful for Him for giving me those guys that hurts me..cause I know that everything has a purposed..and I actually learned from it...And I don't wanna make the same mistakes again..All I want is a guy that God wants me to have...The one that is willing to wait...and the one that will give me the reason to LOVE AGAIN...